Wednesday, May 28, 2008

The Revenge of Lillian


By Hannah Wang

To my sister Melody when she is older.
With love from the author



Prologue

It was a quiet, still, evening. The restless prince could not go to sleep, so he sat up and gazed out his window at the eerie-looking Maple Valley in front of the palace.

A full silver moon happened to pass directly overhead, beams glowing softly on the graceful curve of the two hills. What the prince witnessed next took his breath away. The moonbeams slowly took shape. A head, a torso, arms, a body, legs, a person. Or rather a girl. A lovely, beautiful girl. She drifted across Maple Valley, calling out something inaudible. Then she faded gradually. The stricken prince fainted onto his feather bed.


Chapter One: LIL

A peasant boy named Paul went out of his hut to feed his hen Buttercup. She clucked happily and greedily pecked away the seeds. When she was finished, Paul went back inside and found a handsome leather hornbook on his doorstep, his name printed neatly outside. He gingerly picked it up and called to his mother. “I’ve found a hornbook with my name at our doorstep.” Although the small hornbook looked suspicious, Paul’s mother found nothing wrong with it. “It’s yours to keep,” she said, and went back to clear the dishes.

Taking it to the kitchen table, Paul took out his inkpot and quill, when Buttercup hopped onto the table. “Oh you,” he sighed exasperatedly, and carried Buttercup outside. When he came back in, however, something was already written on the hornbook page.


“Lil?” he thought. “Who wrote that?”


Chapter Two: I AM LILLIAN

The next day, Paul rose out of his blanket and got out his hornbook. Something else was also written on the second page.


The same shaky handwriting. Paul was scared for some reason. The same thing wrote both messages, and it could not be his mother for sure.

Suddenly, a chilling something brushed across the back of Paul’s neck. He whirled around, but nothing was in sight. In a heavy sweat he slowly turned around. There was something unusual going on. The day saw Paul passing it with a feverish mind.

That night he had a dream. A young girl had slipped from a ledge and was now falling, her long trailing red hair billowing behind her like a cape. Her light turquoise eyes were frightened, but at the same time there was a red-hot coal of hatred. The ground was getting closer, closer, closer, level. She collapsed unconscious, perhaps dead. Then Paul woke up, bits of his dream flashing vividly through his mind.


Chapter Three: The Vision

Paul stared at ‘LIL’ and “I AM LILLIAN.’ Then he thought about his strange dream. The messages, the touch, the dream…Were they, could they…be connected? His hornbook messages were written with a shaky hand, the touch was like a cold finger, and his dream had a girl that was killed… Could the girl be…Lillian? Could her ghost be visiting him? He tried to shake off the thought, but it remained firmly lodged inside his brain.

Suddenly, the world around him blurred, and then a misty white fog obscured his vision. The same girl stood in front of Paul, almost transparent. In a haunting, echoing voice, she spoke three words.

“Find my revenge.”


She disappeared, and Paul stood still for a long time.

“Paul, dear, have you finished sweeping the floor?”

The voice brought Paul back to earth. “Sorry mother, I-I drifted off,” he stammered.

“Well,” replied his mother, “then hustle along. Buttercup will be expecting her feed soon.”

Paul grabbed the broken broom and started to sweep, but he couldn’t concentrate.

“Paul!”

Lillian asked me to find her revenge.

“Paul!”

I need to find the person who killed her.

“PAUL!!!”

The booming voice startled him and brought Paul back to reality and out of his racing thoughts.

“Yes, mother?” he asked feebly.

Paul’s mother strode in; her cheeks flushed a bright pink. “Goodness me, are you deaf?” she cried. “I’ve been trying to tell you I’ll be at the miller’s for a little. And do hurry the sweeping. Buttercup won’t let me feed her.”

Paul tried to spend the rest of the day normally.


Chapter Four: The Notice

In the late afternoon, Paul went out for a walk. He came across a booth that had a notice. Ignoring it, he went past.

Look at the notice.

Paul froze. He heard a voice inside his head that wasn’t his own. Doubling back, he read the notice. It was about an outlaw murderer named Fire Beard. The king offered a large reward for his capture, and a larger one for his murder.

Mine.

All of a sudden, Paul understood. The culprit was Lillian’s murderer. He needed to kill him.

Maple Valley.

So Lillian was requesting Fire Beard be killed at Maple Valley.

Paul went home and told his mother he wanted to search for the outlaw Fire Beard. At first she protested, but when it became clear her son had set his mind, she gave in, but ordered he be back at the sundown of ten days later. So Paul bid farewell to his weeping mother, and set off for Maple Valley. It wasn’t too far away. Paul slept for the night.


Chapter Five: At Maple Valley

In the morning, Paul got up and reached Maple Valley by noon. He sat down and ate his loaf of bread, made especially well by his mother as a farewell token. Sighing deeply, he was about to lay down for a good nap when a head popped up in front of him. The face was oddly familiar.

Then Paul realized who the ugly man in front of him was.

Fire Beard!!!

Paul smelled Fire Beard’s smelly breath and rotting teeth bared in a ferocious grin. Alarmed, Paul realized this was a battle for his life.

“Aaaaarrrrghhhh!!!!” Paul gave a loud whoop and gave Fire Beard a sound kick in the stomach. Fire Beard grunted painfully and stopped just long enough so Paul could get a head start.

But for a fat, dirty, middle-aged man with a sore stomach, Fire Beard was pretty fast. Soon Paul had to bust out all the energy he had stored from the loaf of bread and the rest. Then the racing duet reached the stony hills. Paul grasped a firm root and started climbing, while Fire Beard’s massive bulk kept getting in the way. Paul was gaining the upper hand. Now there was a good reason to be small and skinny for his age. He was ascending, climbing, higher, higher…

Suddenly there was only a flat stone face in front of him. Paul halted abruptly. This was the end. He had nothing but a thorny branch that could help him get up twenty of stone face. Even with his small size, the branch would not support him.


Chapter Six: Revenge Fulfilled

Paul could not do anything; he would be trapped even if he went to the side. And Fire Beard was getting closer. By the sound of his panting, he was about one rod behind him. He was going to die…

“NO! NO! You are dead!” Gently easing his neck around, he saw Fire Beard with a panicked face. Paul spotted a faint glittering. Lillian?

“NOOO!!!” Fire Beard howled and suddenly lost his grip. Down he fell…

.He is dead.

Lillian sounded satisfied. Slowly, Paul found his way down. Fire Beard was gone forever. Then the soil cleared. Paul gasped.

There was a dead carcass. The body had long red hair. Its blank half-open eyes were light blue. The pale skin was wearing thin. Any clothes left were muddy and full of holes. The mouth was slightly gaping. Then the soil flew back over and the carcass disappeared. Taking the body of Fire Beard, he journeyed to the king’s Palace.

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Sitting in his manor, Paul relaxed. A servant brought him a cup of tea. Sipping daintily, he slouched on a velvet chair filled with cushions when there was a now-familiar voice inside his head.

Thank you.

He smiled.


Epilogue

The Prince looked out the window. There was Maple Valley in front of him.

A full silver moon passed by. Once again, the moonbeams took shape. There was Lillian Paul had told him about. But the sad, melancholy look on her face was gone.
In place was a satisfied smile, almost a smirk. Fire Beard would kill no more.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Aerosmith - "Dream on"

Aerosmith ~ Dream on
Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you
Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away
(x2)

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

年轻

今天星期天去教堂,函函没有去少儿组,而是和我们一起听布道,这次讲的是peace,how to make peace in your daily life. 当牧师讲到,很多时候不是对方做错了什么,而是我们对对方的期待让我们不满意了。我觉得讲得很对,就比如说,对函函,因为我们对她的期待值很高,所以她常常会有“过失”,虽然早早就意识到这一点,也知道这样对函函是不公平的,但真正改掉这个习惯,还是有一定难度,需要一定时间的。
牧师还讲了别的金玉良言。
散场后,我问函函是不是受了点启发。
函函有点困惑,I know the message is about peace, but why it's so long?
我恍然,笑道,他讲的道理你之所以没有感觉,那是因为你还没有开始犯这些错误。

--啊,你可真年轻,函。

最后一天

当我对函函说起一星期不吃肉的计划时,函函痛快地答应了,但一转身又问我:只是一个星期吧?不是ever after 吧? 我说只一星期。函函哦了一声,心理踏实了。我心说:是不是有点吃不消啊?

今天是最后一天了,这几天的素食吃得我四肢发软。本打算只是晚餐不上肉菜,结果,函函把它演变成一日三餐都没肉,也没desert. 鸡蛋豆腐青菜来回炒,居然没有重复地炒了快一星期了。

昨天在外面吃中饭,daddy 点了几个肉丸子,妹妹要了chocolate cake. 函函坚持只要了一点白米饭和vegi,还是steam 的,没油没盐。为了支持函函,俺当然也不稀罕那一点油腥。

妹妹不懂这些,要吃蛋糕,我给她切了一小块,bite-size,也劝函函:嗯,你就当是一块饼吧。
妹妹接茬道:Hannah,吃饼饼。
姐姐不为所动:妹妹,这个饼饼不是那个饼饼。(那个饼饼指的是我们早餐常吃一种薄薄的煎饼)
我说: 那好吧,我们把cake save起来,明天晚上12点以后就可以吃了。
daddy 劝函函: 吃一点吧,晚上多pray 一次就可以了。
函函说:好!那我就pray 这个蛋糕不要坏吧。

蛋糕当然等不得及我们办完事回家把它放进冰箱,路上我把它扔了。

以函函平时饮食的习惯来说,她最近应该是常常吃不饱的,中午不是学校的yogurt lunch 或 baked potato, 就是从家里带一个黑馒头(全卖的),一小瓶yogurt和几片水果,一直要维持到7点钟吃晚饭,还是很不容易的。

Green Day - "Boulevard of Broken Dreams"

Green Day ~ Boulevard of Broken Dreams
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines whats
fucked up and everything's all right
Check my vital signs to
know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only
thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out
there would find me
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I walk alone and
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadow's only one
that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only
thing that's beatin'
Sometimes I wish someone out
there would find me
Till then I'll walk alone!
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's only one
that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only
thing that's beatin'
Sometimes I wish someone out
there would find me
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah ahhhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

Friday, May 23, 2008

山顶洞人的困惑

千万年前某一天晴方好,两个山顶洞人比谁说的数字大,结果说“3” 的那位赢了,
这是个老笑话了,
但是我却经常想起他们,想起他们的那一场“旷世决斗”。

我现在在这里写下的,
等我老了,看到的会是什么呢?
我现在殚精竭虑的结果,难道只是留给我日后嘲笑的把柄吗?

也知道人是在不断进步,
可总觉得现在想明白想通透的事情,我已然得到了完美成熟的答案,最终的答案,
但根据既往经验,我又可以肯定,20年后,我将会知道100才是最大。

今天看了晚我几年上学的孩子们的文章,“北大往事”,
他们还在那儿围着一点小花小草小情小愫唏嘘感慨,
我一旁连嘲笑他们的心思都没有了。

是我老了么?是过来人了么?
年轻时想破脑子也想不明白的问题,
这不,都自然明白了么。

那么,
我现在不明白的问题,
以后也会“自然就明白”了吗?

真是很有意思——
当你想要这个答案,并且这对你很重要时,
你是想不明白的;
等到你不再需要它了,
答案它却白纸黑字的写在你眼前了。

让我说什么好呢。

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Vegetarian

两星期前的事了。
我问函函:"如果你的husband 是个vegetarian, 你怎么办哪?你又那么爱吃肉。”
正在看书的函函从书本中抬起头,热情洋溢的答道:“I'll prepare 2 meals..."
“啊呀,那怎么可以!”
”万万使不得!”
Daddy 和 Mommy一左一右,一前一后,不约而同,冲上前去,毅然决然,予以反对。

函函在那儿半张着嘴,有点愣住了,眨着一双求知的眼睛。
一看这“势”造起来了,做爹的和做妈的就开始涓涓细水的教导,blah blah,这里省去若干行。

事后,我问daddy:咱们这么做,是不是有点过分咧?太世故啦?
做daddy 的倒是一点心理负担都没有:她的plan 根本就行不通嘛,做一顿就够累的了,还做两顿,要累死去啊?

想起函函她外婆曾多次明示暗示俺,家务活不要都揽下来,让老公也锻炼锻炼,云云。结果都被年轻气盛的俺气愤愤地挡了回去。
如今回报了不是。

护犊之心,做过父母的都可以体谅的哈。

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

虽然龙体欠安

据前线回来的朋友们反映,四川人们依然乐观幽默,不虚天府之名,龙心甚慰;
又据说,中国红十字保证此次分毛不拔,龙颜大悦;

关注和热情也许会下降,但反省和重建却是持久的;
经此劫数,愿吾国民心从此凝聚。

爸爸妈妈都病了

晚饭后,跟妹妹讲:爸妈都病了,妈妈今晚不能给你读书了,都让姐姐读了吧。
洗完澡,姐妹俩人呆在一起读了几本书,函函出来说:妹妹睡了。
“哦?她不要妈妈kiss 一下吗?”
“我跟她说妈妈有germ,不能kiss." 于是姐姐要求我kiss她的头发,然后睡觉去了。

半夜,妹妹咳嗽,翻肠倒肚的把晚饭全吐了。其实妹妹咳嗽有一个多星期了,医生说是感冒,但似乎把我和daddy都传染了,白天她倒没什么不适,就晚上咳嗽一阵阵。

早上,姐姐已经起床,自己倒了牛奶和cereal吃了,然后要求我送她上学,因为daddy起不了床。妹妹也已经起来了,就是说,两大人还躺着,小朋友早已下地活动了。

送姐姐走前,我对妹妹说:妹妹,妈妈送姐姐上学,爸爸病了,有事等妈妈回来。
妹妹的小眼睛小嘴巴似乎另有计较,我顾不得许多,就出去了。

20分钟后回家,想了想,按了一下门铃,听见里面咚咚咚的脚步声,和妹妹尖声尖气的叫着“妈妈!妈妈!”我依然没作声,门打开了,妹妹欢天喜地的,我对她说:“妹妹你一个人在楼下,不可以随便开门的。”楼上睡在客房的daddy有气没力的解释道:“妹妹问了我的,我告诉她是妈妈回来了。”

妹妹跟着我走到了厨房,冲我甜蜜的笑着道:“嗯, yummy!”一边还夸张地摸着小肚子。
我一看,小嘴角上还挂着一滴牛奶,“妹妹,你吃什么啦?”-- 昨晚的碗都没收拾,实在是太累了,怕妹妹捡了什么剩菜剩饭吃了 -- 然后我看到一小碗牛奶泡cereal,已经吃了大半。
“妹妹,你给自己倒牛奶和cereal吃啦?”
妹妹立刻骄傲的指着这个那个高高的碗柜,告诉我她从这里拿了cereal,从那里拿了碗,又从冰箱里拿了牛奶。
“倒牛奶时有没有spill milk 啊?”-- 我看见碗旁边一团napkin。
“Yes,and I wiped it with napkin."
"看来,把你一人留在家里,你不会饿死的哦。”
我拍拍她的头,表示鼓励。

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Ozzy Osbourne - "Dreamer"

Ozzy Osbourne ~ Dreamer
Gazing through the window at the world outside
Wondering will mother earth survive
Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime

After all there's only just the two of us
And here we are still fighting for our lives
Watching all of history repeat itself
Time after time

I'm just a dreamer
I dream my life away
I'm just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days

I watch the sun go down like everyone of us
I'm hoping that the dawn will bring a sign
A better place for those Who will come after us ...
This time

I'm just a dreamer
I dream my life away oh yeah
I'm just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days
Your higher power may be God or Jesus Christ
It doesn't really matter much to me
Without each others help there ain't no hope for us
I'm living in a dream of fantasy
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah

If only we could all just find serenity
It would be nice if we could live as one
When will all this anger, hate and biggotry ...
Be gone?

I'm just a dreamer
I dream my life away
Today
I'm just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days
Okay
I'm just a dreamer
Who's searching for the way
Today
I'm just a dreamer
Dreaming my life away
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah

Monday, May 19, 2008

[转贴] A Mother's unconditional love...

...changed my life.

It was a couple of days before Christmas and I was shopping at the Vancouver Costco. I couldn't help but notice how "un-Christmas" the atmosphere was...parents yelling at their kids to hurry up and don't touch this or that...or worse, some kids were just being ignored and crying for attention. Civilized adults being rude to each other...and I remember thinking how pitiful it all was. I was in the store looking for a Wii - somebody told me they might be available there. I asked a clerk who very nicely told me I was out of luck - see I only had a vague idea of what a Wii is and no idea of how popular they were - making them scarce. Another Costco "customer" heard me ask and after the cleck left he approached me and offered to sell me one - for $500. After talking to this "gentleman" - it turns out he somehow managed to buy 10 or so units (not sure if they were from Costco or not) and was just hanging out at Costco to find people looking for these games so he could sell them one. He actually said things like "you'd better do this because I am your only hope" and "your kids will hate you if they don't have a Wii on Christmas morning." I suddenly felt really sad because I know for some people he was telling the truth.

On my way out I decided to get a Costco hotdog special. That's when I got the Christmas Spirit again. I was just looking around at all the people hustling, bustling, ignoring, yelling, pushing, shoving and then I saw her and her little boy. At first, I didn't take it all in - all I noticed was this woman's happy smile. And then I noticed her son was handicapped. He couldn't sit up by himself very well. He couldn't eat by himself and when he had food in his mouth, it would come back out. But at first glance you wouldn't know it. This Mom was using one hand to hold him up. She was breaking his food into small bits and feeding it to him and wiping his mouth every few seconds. She did this while she was eating her own lunch, whispering conversation to him and gently kissing his head now and then - and smiling both full of happiness and pride the whole time. I found that amazing especially in contrast with what was surrounding them. They were most definitely in their own peaceful and loving world. I watched them for a few minutes and reluctantly went on my way. Her love and peace had touched me, but I knew if I stayed longer and watched, they may have spotted me watching them and it could have made them uncomfortable or somehow taken away from their time there.

Now it's just over 2 months later and this is still on my mind - as it is everyday. I am more thankful for my kids and I am more at peace and more accepting of things when they don't work out the way I want. I try hard to be more gentle and kind towards others. I want to smile the way I saw this woman smile. I want that peace and contentment. I want to be able to love unconditionally. I have heard that before - but it doesn't really have meaning until you see it.

It's a 100 million to one chance that the person who I am talking about sees this, but I need to say thank you. I want you to know that you made a difference in my life.

Thank you.

[镜注] I want that peace and contentment too!

No meat for dinner this whole week

这片土地虽然姐姐妹妹们还未曾踏足,但追悼和思念的心应该是一样的。
函函对汶川地震的印象一如我对缅甸的龙卷风,这是不对的(我说的是函函)。我不想给她看悲惨的照片,又不知道更虔诚的纪念仪式,于是我对肉食爱好者函说:我们这星期不吃肉了,为了悼念地震中的死难者,吃饭前,你可以为他们pray.
这星期做菜倒是省事了,少了不少油腻。

Friday, May 16, 2008

三朵小花

昨日(5/16),当11岁的张吉万背着3岁的妹妹出现在记者镜头前时,这个小哥哥已经背着妹妹走了10多个钟头,在记者帮助下,将他们带到绵阳收容点。

[镜注] 从小妹妹一点也不懂事的憨样,可知哥哥平时就是怎样罩着他的小妹妹的。

5月15日上午,北川地震受灾群众生活稳定,一四岁小男孩和姐姐正在吃志愿者送来的方便面。

[镜注] 刚看第一眼时我就笑了:小姑娘还蓬头垢面的,就开始向小男孩送媚眼了。后来发现小男孩是她弟弟。这是个平时让着弟弟的好脾气的小姑娘。后面那位女士的笑容俺也很喜欢。

孩子们纯真的笑脸

[镜注] 希望这次经历对这位小姑娘来说,是一次和很多小朋友一起住帐篷看星星看月亮,吃着各种好吃的方便面的美好回忆。

First school report

Melody is a charming little girl who has a great attitude towards school. She always seems happy and content. She stays very busy in the practical life area of the class, although recently she has begun to start to explore the other areas. In math she has been introduced to basic addition with the use of counters and in language, she is practicing matching letters to pictures for the beginning and ending sound in the word. We are delighted Melody will be returning to our class next year.

Teacher: Mrs. Burden

--我最得意的是这句 "always seems happy and content"

之间

因着做过医生的缘故,我以为我已经参透了生死的一大半。
第一次上解剖课之前,同学们相互恐吓说今天中午的红烧排骨怕是吃不下了。
等到摘下口罩,洗完手,肚子饿了,一个也没含糊的往食堂直奔,奔着一周一次的红烧排骨就去了,似乎谁也记不得上课之前说过的话。
毕竟年轻,禁不得饿。

再后来,考试临近,独自一人深夜呆在解剖室,与十几具浸泡了若干年的尸体为伍,用镊子扒拉扒拉这个,捅捅那个,仔细辨认着血管和神经,除了刺鼻的福尔马林熏得泪眼汪汪,倒也没别的不适。
怕不怕的,只是一种心理状态,可以约束的,可考试过不了,那是件很恐惧的事情,因为不知道将会发生什么。

再再后来,做医生了,死人的事情每星期见好几回,有时在医院值班,深更半夜被值班护士叫起给脑死亡已久的病人作心外按摩,至今还记得按摩一具没有生命的躯体的感觉。这个时候,医生永远要保持非常中性的面孔,不能显示你的任何情感,无需说太多的话,有条不紊的做着该做的事情,这样才能稳定家属的心。有几次我先在值班室里静静呆一会,把眼泪流完了,再出去见我的病人。

在生死之间穿梭久了,以为习惯了。
但是我忘了一点,我的病人临终时都很安详,没什么痛苦,因为很多就这么昏迷着过去了。
灾难临头的瞬即,每一位逝者以他特有的姿势,面容,讲述着不一样的故事,个个淋漓着鲜血,我想我若是在现场,只怕是又要遭遇一场洗礼。


我为牺牲自己换来孩子生命的母亲泪流满面。我想我永远无法穿越这样的生和死。

真的希望自己相信上帝是存在的,是怜悯的。




[故事]

抢救人员发现她的时候,她已经死了,是被垮塌下来的房子压死的,透过那一堆废墟的的间隙可以看到她死亡的姿势,双膝跪着,整个上身向前匍匐着,双手扶着地支撑着身体,有些象古人行跪拜礼,只是身体被压的变形了,看上去有些诡异。

救援人员从废墟的空隙伸手进去确认了她已经死亡,又在冲着废墟喊了几声,用撬棍在在砖头上敲了几下,里面没有任何回应。当人群走到下一个建筑物的时候,救援队长忽然往回跑,边跑变喊“快过来”。他又来到她的尸体前,费力的把手伸进女人的身子底下摸索,他摸了几下高声的喊“有人,有个孩子 ,还活着”。

经过一番努力,人们小心的把挡着她的废墟清理开,在她的身体下面躺着她的孩子,包在一个红色带黄花的小被子里,大概有3、4个月大,因为母亲身体庇护着,他毫发未伤,抱出来的时候,他还安静的睡着,他熟睡的脸让所有在场的人感到很温暖。 随行的医生过来解开被子准备做些检查,发现有一部手机塞在被子里,医生下意识的看了下手机屏幕,发现屏幕上是一条已经写好的短信“亲爱的宝贝,如果你能活着,一定要记住我爱你”,看惯了生离死别的医生却在这一刻落泪了,手机传递着,每个看到短信的人都落泪了。

Thursday, May 15, 2008

三件事

早先听说有一部分加拿大人喜欢纳税,以纳税为自豪,颇有些不好理解,尤其是,众说周知,加拿大有“大家拿”之美名。
后来纳着纳着,也就纳习惯了,似乎也纳出来了一些些自豪感?再后来当吃饭穿衣买锅之外的余钱渐渐多起来时,各种名目的捐款也渐渐浮出海面,一时不知所措,后来终于明白,这捐款也跟投资一个道理(当然俺也没啥投资,做菜的锅子算不算哪?),要有目标,于是我就近选择了姐姐妹妹的学区,和隔三差五去的教堂,别的一概婉拒,除非disaster relief fund 之类的突发事件。这样一来,拒绝登门造访者和来函来电,俺的底气就足多了。

古人云:人生不能避免两件事,一是死亡,二就是纳税,如今看来,还有第三者,那就是捐款。
--俺喜欢后两者超过前者。

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

想起一位父亲

他儿子在伊拉克战争中失踪后来证实已死亡。他说:“My heart sinks, but I know they can't hurt him anymore." 这,怕是对生还者最好的安慰了。

被灾难袭倒的灵魂,不再受难了;
活下来的亲人,面对的是难以释怀的痛苦,和破碎的家园。

活着,实属不易,
享受每一天吧,抛弃无谓的附属和烦恼;
因为,你实在不知道今晚一觉醒来,
到了哪一站。

同去?

如果有人愿意捐款至China Tomorrow Education Foundation (http://www.ctef.org/index.asp),他们有earthquake relief fund, 或是别的组织,可以来函来电告诉我数目,我可以先垫上,再到公司match一下,然后数目就double了,然后你就慢慢分期付款还我好了。

和一首

给妹妹做数学题,10以内的加法顺利通过,因为职业的关系,我自然要做boundary test.
“0+0=?”
“nothing!”
“你是说zero,对吧?0+1=?”
“one!"
"right!" --下限通过,测上限:“10+10=?”
“one hundred!" -- 回答迅速。
星爸的角度来看1)妹妹会做100以内的加法;2)如果我开始问的是10*10,是不是可以说妹妹会乘法了?还是心算的,还是自学的。

Friday, May 9, 2008

Abraham Lincoln

1. Experiences/Influences
Abraham Lincoln’s first goal was to become president. The first step he took was that when he was 23, he decided to run for Illinois state legislature, but was defeated. After 2 more years, Lincoln ran for state legislature again. This time he placed second and was one of the four elected to the Illinois House of Representatives. Lincoln was also advised to take up the study of law. He accepted, and had been elected to a second term in state legislature. He also took a job as junior partner in John Todd Stuart’s law office.
Soon after, Abe had an eye for the Congress. In 1846, Lincoln was elected to a seat at the Congress. But his 2-year term was a disappointment. No real action had been taken. He returned to full-time study of the law.
Before Lincoln would become president, however, another problem was rising: slavery. It was something Lincoln disliked, and became another goal for him: to abolish slavery. He held 7 debates with his long-time rival, Stephen A. Douglas, for the Senate. Lincoln lost the election, but the debates had catapulted him to national prominence. He was even mentioned as a possible president, an idea he took up. Later, he ran for it, taking the advice of Grace Bedell, who suggested he should grow a beard to boost his chances of winning. On November 6, 1860, Abraham Lincoln was elected president.
Now his only goals were about slavery and the departing South. All compromises Lincoln tried to make failed, and the South was ready for war. Finally, it started when President Lincoln sent supplies to Fort Sumter. He set yet another goal: to end the war as quickly as possible.
It wasn’t easy. Lincoln could not find suitable generals.
Meanwhile, President Lincoln came up with an idea for the slavery problem. He wrote an Emancipation Proclamation, stating that if the rebels didn’t return by January 1, all the remaining Confederate slaves would be freed “thenceforward and forever.” However, the rebels did not return to the Union by the deadline. The Southern slaves were freed in America.
Many slaves joined the Union, but Lincoln still couldn’t find a good general. It went on, until he met Ulysses S. Grant, the general he had been looking for. He appointed Grant general in chief of all Union armies.
Down in Georgia, General Sherman finally pushed his way to Atlanta, setting the city in flames. Soon, after a string of Union victories, the South surrendered. 5 days later, Lincoln was shot by John Wilkes Booth, so ending the Civil War was the last major goal the president would ever accomplish.

2. Character Trait
I think Abraham Lincoln was a confident person. It takes confidence to deliver supplies when you know it might start a war and to keep plowing on without surrendering even when everything is going downhill. During a debate, when a rival called Lincoln “two-faced,” Lincoln responded, “I leave it to my audience. If I had another face, do you think I’d wear this one?” He learned to laugh at his looks, and brushed aside any insults or ridicules in the news paper, though he kept pieces which praised him. Lincoln was also a very confident man ever since he was young, because he would run for important positions and (over time) was not scared of public speeches and debates. Lincoln even ignored the multiple death threats that arrived in his mail every day after the war, believing that they were only meant to scare him, until he was shot at Ford’s Theatre on April 14, 1865. One thing he was renowned for is his jokes, which he told as greetings, and made him a very confident person. We know him as an American hero who freed the slaves by starting a war, which took confidence. And it also made Lincoln very confident when he declared the Emancipation Proclamation, making the slaves forever free, although there was a risk Kentucky, Missouri, Maryland, and Delaware, who were loyal to the Union, but held slaves, would secede. All this made him very confident, and also thoughtful and caring, because the main point of the Civil War was about slavery and keeping the United States together, and you could see that he cared for people and the nation.

3. Personal Successes or Contributions to our society
The thing Abraham Lincoln did that he was most renowned is that he freed the slaves of the South. This may have changed our lives a great deal, for if the Emancipation Proclamation had never been announced, why, people might not realize the cruelty of slavery for a while, and about the only place you would see blacks are in the South plantations for a time. He also brought the North and South together, when the South had seceded. If he didn’t, you might need a passport to get into states like Texas or Georgia, instead of just airplane tickets or car drives. Lincoln had changed the lives of whites and blacks the same. Had he not come along, you would most likely still see WANTED posters everywhere on stores and buildings, and the sound of a whip would still break through the air of the South much longer than 1862. Who knows? Maybe the act would spread throughout the entire United States, to Mexico, and even Canada, if not stopped as early! But no. The United States is still completely united, and slavery has become illegal. Abraham Lincoln has changed the course of American history.

4. Reader’s Personal Reflections
What I found admirable about Lincoln is how he could take action and gain confidence rapidly. No insults would do more than slightly rile him, he just went on to end the Civil War, halt slavery, and run for any position he thought he might like. I don’t know if I can truly ever achieve that, but all the same, his life taught me some lessons. It is all right to speak up for things that others have another opinion of, especially now we have freedom of speech, for you have a right to feel how you feel, and say what you want to say. This is America. And also, laugh at your imperfections.


-By Hannah Wang