Wednesday, May 28, 2008

The Revenge of Lillian


By Hannah Wang

To my sister Melody when she is older.
With love from the author



Prologue

It was a quiet, still, evening. The restless prince could not go to sleep, so he sat up and gazed out his window at the eerie-looking Maple Valley in front of the palace.

A full silver moon happened to pass directly overhead, beams glowing softly on the graceful curve of the two hills. What the prince witnessed next took his breath away. The moonbeams slowly took shape. A head, a torso, arms, a body, legs, a person. Or rather a girl. A lovely, beautiful girl. She drifted across Maple Valley, calling out something inaudible. Then she faded gradually. The stricken prince fainted onto his feather bed.


Chapter One: LIL

A peasant boy named Paul went out of his hut to feed his hen Buttercup. She clucked happily and greedily pecked away the seeds. When she was finished, Paul went back inside and found a handsome leather hornbook on his doorstep, his name printed neatly outside. He gingerly picked it up and called to his mother. “I’ve found a hornbook with my name at our doorstep.” Although the small hornbook looked suspicious, Paul’s mother found nothing wrong with it. “It’s yours to keep,” she said, and went back to clear the dishes.

Taking it to the kitchen table, Paul took out his inkpot and quill, when Buttercup hopped onto the table. “Oh you,” he sighed exasperatedly, and carried Buttercup outside. When he came back in, however, something was already written on the hornbook page.


“Lil?” he thought. “Who wrote that?”


Chapter Two: I AM LILLIAN

The next day, Paul rose out of his blanket and got out his hornbook. Something else was also written on the second page.


The same shaky handwriting. Paul was scared for some reason. The same thing wrote both messages, and it could not be his mother for sure.

Suddenly, a chilling something brushed across the back of Paul’s neck. He whirled around, but nothing was in sight. In a heavy sweat he slowly turned around. There was something unusual going on. The day saw Paul passing it with a feverish mind.

That night he had a dream. A young girl had slipped from a ledge and was now falling, her long trailing red hair billowing behind her like a cape. Her light turquoise eyes were frightened, but at the same time there was a red-hot coal of hatred. The ground was getting closer, closer, closer, level. She collapsed unconscious, perhaps dead. Then Paul woke up, bits of his dream flashing vividly through his mind.


Chapter Three: The Vision

Paul stared at ‘LIL’ and “I AM LILLIAN.’ Then he thought about his strange dream. The messages, the touch, the dream…Were they, could they…be connected? His hornbook messages were written with a shaky hand, the touch was like a cold finger, and his dream had a girl that was killed… Could the girl be…Lillian? Could her ghost be visiting him? He tried to shake off the thought, but it remained firmly lodged inside his brain.

Suddenly, the world around him blurred, and then a misty white fog obscured his vision. The same girl stood in front of Paul, almost transparent. In a haunting, echoing voice, she spoke three words.

“Find my revenge.”


She disappeared, and Paul stood still for a long time.

“Paul, dear, have you finished sweeping the floor?”

The voice brought Paul back to earth. “Sorry mother, I-I drifted off,” he stammered.

“Well,” replied his mother, “then hustle along. Buttercup will be expecting her feed soon.”

Paul grabbed the broken broom and started to sweep, but he couldn’t concentrate.

“Paul!”

Lillian asked me to find her revenge.

“Paul!”

I need to find the person who killed her.

“PAUL!!!”

The booming voice startled him and brought Paul back to reality and out of his racing thoughts.

“Yes, mother?” he asked feebly.

Paul’s mother strode in; her cheeks flushed a bright pink. “Goodness me, are you deaf?” she cried. “I’ve been trying to tell you I’ll be at the miller’s for a little. And do hurry the sweeping. Buttercup won’t let me feed her.”

Paul tried to spend the rest of the day normally.


Chapter Four: The Notice

In the late afternoon, Paul went out for a walk. He came across a booth that had a notice. Ignoring it, he went past.

Look at the notice.

Paul froze. He heard a voice inside his head that wasn’t his own. Doubling back, he read the notice. It was about an outlaw murderer named Fire Beard. The king offered a large reward for his capture, and a larger one for his murder.

Mine.

All of a sudden, Paul understood. The culprit was Lillian’s murderer. He needed to kill him.

Maple Valley.

So Lillian was requesting Fire Beard be killed at Maple Valley.

Paul went home and told his mother he wanted to search for the outlaw Fire Beard. At first she protested, but when it became clear her son had set his mind, she gave in, but ordered he be back at the sundown of ten days later. So Paul bid farewell to his weeping mother, and set off for Maple Valley. It wasn’t too far away. Paul slept for the night.


Chapter Five: At Maple Valley

In the morning, Paul got up and reached Maple Valley by noon. He sat down and ate his loaf of bread, made especially well by his mother as a farewell token. Sighing deeply, he was about to lay down for a good nap when a head popped up in front of him. The face was oddly familiar.

Then Paul realized who the ugly man in front of him was.

Fire Beard!!!

Paul smelled Fire Beard’s smelly breath and rotting teeth bared in a ferocious grin. Alarmed, Paul realized this was a battle for his life.

“Aaaaarrrrghhhh!!!!” Paul gave a loud whoop and gave Fire Beard a sound kick in the stomach. Fire Beard grunted painfully and stopped just long enough so Paul could get a head start.

But for a fat, dirty, middle-aged man with a sore stomach, Fire Beard was pretty fast. Soon Paul had to bust out all the energy he had stored from the loaf of bread and the rest. Then the racing duet reached the stony hills. Paul grasped a firm root and started climbing, while Fire Beard’s massive bulk kept getting in the way. Paul was gaining the upper hand. Now there was a good reason to be small and skinny for his age. He was ascending, climbing, higher, higher…

Suddenly there was only a flat stone face in front of him. Paul halted abruptly. This was the end. He had nothing but a thorny branch that could help him get up twenty of stone face. Even with his small size, the branch would not support him.


Chapter Six: Revenge Fulfilled

Paul could not do anything; he would be trapped even if he went to the side. And Fire Beard was getting closer. By the sound of his panting, he was about one rod behind him. He was going to die…

“NO! NO! You are dead!” Gently easing his neck around, he saw Fire Beard with a panicked face. Paul spotted a faint glittering. Lillian?

“NOOO!!!” Fire Beard howled and suddenly lost his grip. Down he fell…

.He is dead.

Lillian sounded satisfied. Slowly, Paul found his way down. Fire Beard was gone forever. Then the soil cleared. Paul gasped.

There was a dead carcass. The body had long red hair. Its blank half-open eyes were light blue. The pale skin was wearing thin. Any clothes left were muddy and full of holes. The mouth was slightly gaping. Then the soil flew back over and the carcass disappeared. Taking the body of Fire Beard, he journeyed to the king’s Palace.

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Sitting in his manor, Paul relaxed. A servant brought him a cup of tea. Sipping daintily, he slouched on a velvet chair filled with cushions when there was a now-familiar voice inside his head.

Thank you.

He smiled.


Epilogue

The Prince looked out the window. There was Maple Valley in front of him.

A full silver moon passed by. Once again, the moonbeams took shape. There was Lillian Paul had told him about. But the sad, melancholy look on her face was gone.
In place was a satisfied smile, almost a smirk. Fire Beard would kill no more.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Aerosmith - "Dream on"

Aerosmith ~ Dream on
Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you
Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away
(x2)

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

年轻

今天星期天去教堂,函函没有去少儿组,而是和我们一起听布道,这次讲的是peace,how to make peace in your daily life. 当牧师讲到,很多时候不是对方做错了什么,而是我们对对方的期待让我们不满意了。我觉得讲得很对,就比如说,对函函,因为我们对她的期待值很高,所以她常常会有“过失”,虽然早早就意识到这一点,也知道这样对函函是不公平的,但真正改掉这个习惯,还是有一定难度,需要一定时间的。
牧师还讲了别的金玉良言。
散场后,我问函函是不是受了点启发。
函函有点困惑,I know the message is about peace, but why it's so long?
我恍然,笑道,他讲的道理你之所以没有感觉,那是因为你还没有开始犯这些错误。

--啊,你可真年轻,函。

最后一天

当我对函函说起一星期不吃肉的计划时,函函痛快地答应了,但一转身又问我:只是一个星期吧?不是ever after 吧? 我说只一星期。函函哦了一声,心理踏实了。我心说:是不是有点吃不消啊?

今天是最后一天了,这几天的素食吃得我四肢发软。本打算只是晚餐不上肉菜,结果,函函把它演变成一日三餐都没肉,也没desert. 鸡蛋豆腐青菜来回炒,居然没有重复地炒了快一星期了。

昨天在外面吃中饭,daddy 点了几个肉丸子,妹妹要了chocolate cake. 函函坚持只要了一点白米饭和vegi,还是steam 的,没油没盐。为了支持函函,俺当然也不稀罕那一点油腥。

妹妹不懂这些,要吃蛋糕,我给她切了一小块,bite-size,也劝函函:嗯,你就当是一块饼吧。
妹妹接茬道:Hannah,吃饼饼。
姐姐不为所动:妹妹,这个饼饼不是那个饼饼。(那个饼饼指的是我们早餐常吃一种薄薄的煎饼)
我说: 那好吧,我们把cake save起来,明天晚上12点以后就可以吃了。
daddy 劝函函: 吃一点吧,晚上多pray 一次就可以了。
函函说:好!那我就pray 这个蛋糕不要坏吧。

蛋糕当然等不得及我们办完事回家把它放进冰箱,路上我把它扔了。

以函函平时饮食的习惯来说,她最近应该是常常吃不饱的,中午不是学校的yogurt lunch 或 baked potato, 就是从家里带一个黑馒头(全卖的),一小瓶yogurt和几片水果,一直要维持到7点钟吃晚饭,还是很不容易的。

Green Day - "Boulevard of Broken Dreams"

Green Day ~ Boulevard of Broken Dreams
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines whats
fucked up and everything's all right
Check my vital signs to
know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only
thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out
there would find me
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I walk alone and
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadow's only one
that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only
thing that's beatin'
Sometimes I wish someone out
there would find me
Till then I'll walk alone!
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's only one
that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only
thing that's beatin'
Sometimes I wish someone out
there would find me
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah ahhhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

Friday, May 23, 2008

山顶洞人的困惑

千万年前某一天晴方好,两个山顶洞人比谁说的数字大,结果说“3” 的那位赢了,
这是个老笑话了,
但是我却经常想起他们,想起他们的那一场“旷世决斗”。

我现在在这里写下的,
等我老了,看到的会是什么呢?
我现在殚精竭虑的结果,难道只是留给我日后嘲笑的把柄吗?

也知道人是在不断进步,
可总觉得现在想明白想通透的事情,我已然得到了完美成熟的答案,最终的答案,
但根据既往经验,我又可以肯定,20年后,我将会知道100才是最大。

今天看了晚我几年上学的孩子们的文章,“北大往事”,
他们还在那儿围着一点小花小草小情小愫唏嘘感慨,
我一旁连嘲笑他们的心思都没有了。

是我老了么?是过来人了么?
年轻时想破脑子也想不明白的问题,
这不,都自然明白了么。

那么,
我现在不明白的问题,
以后也会“自然就明白”了吗?

真是很有意思——
当你想要这个答案,并且这对你很重要时,
你是想不明白的;
等到你不再需要它了,
答案它却白纸黑字的写在你眼前了。

让我说什么好呢。

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Vegetarian

两星期前的事了。
我问函函:"如果你的husband 是个vegetarian, 你怎么办哪?你又那么爱吃肉。”
正在看书的函函从书本中抬起头,热情洋溢的答道:“I'll prepare 2 meals..."
“啊呀,那怎么可以!”
”万万使不得!”
Daddy 和 Mommy一左一右,一前一后,不约而同,冲上前去,毅然决然,予以反对。

函函在那儿半张着嘴,有点愣住了,眨着一双求知的眼睛。
一看这“势”造起来了,做爹的和做妈的就开始涓涓细水的教导,blah blah,这里省去若干行。

事后,我问daddy:咱们这么做,是不是有点过分咧?太世故啦?
做daddy 的倒是一点心理负担都没有:她的plan 根本就行不通嘛,做一顿就够累的了,还做两顿,要累死去啊?

想起函函她外婆曾多次明示暗示俺,家务活不要都揽下来,让老公也锻炼锻炼,云云。结果都被年轻气盛的俺气愤愤地挡了回去。
如今回报了不是。

护犊之心,做过父母的都可以体谅的哈。

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

虽然龙体欠安

据前线回来的朋友们反映,四川人们依然乐观幽默,不虚天府之名,龙心甚慰;
又据说,中国红十字保证此次分毛不拔,龙颜大悦;

关注和热情也许会下降,但反省和重建却是持久的;
经此劫数,愿吾国民心从此凝聚。

爸爸妈妈都病了

晚饭后,跟妹妹讲:爸妈都病了,妈妈今晚不能给你读书了,都让姐姐读了吧。
洗完澡,姐妹俩人呆在一起读了几本书,函函出来说:妹妹睡了。
“哦?她不要妈妈kiss 一下吗?”
“我跟她说妈妈有germ,不能kiss." 于是姐姐要求我kiss她的头发,然后睡觉去了。

半夜,妹妹咳嗽,翻肠倒肚的把晚饭全吐了。其实妹妹咳嗽有一个多星期了,医生说是感冒,但似乎把我和daddy都传染了,白天她倒没什么不适,就晚上咳嗽一阵阵。

早上,姐姐已经起床,自己倒了牛奶和cereal吃了,然后要求我送她上学,因为daddy起不了床。妹妹也已经起来了,就是说,两大人还躺着,小朋友早已下地活动了。

送姐姐走前,我对妹妹说:妹妹,妈妈送姐姐上学,爸爸病了,有事等妈妈回来。
妹妹的小眼睛小嘴巴似乎另有计较,我顾不得许多,就出去了。

20分钟后回家,想了想,按了一下门铃,听见里面咚咚咚的脚步声,和妹妹尖声尖气的叫着“妈妈!妈妈!”我依然没作声,门打开了,妹妹欢天喜地的,我对她说:“妹妹你一个人在楼下,不可以随便开门的。”楼上睡在客房的daddy有气没力的解释道:“妹妹问了我的,我告诉她是妈妈回来了。”

妹妹跟着我走到了厨房,冲我甜蜜的笑着道:“嗯, yummy!”一边还夸张地摸着小肚子。
我一看,小嘴角上还挂着一滴牛奶,“妹妹,你吃什么啦?”-- 昨晚的碗都没收拾,实在是太累了,怕妹妹捡了什么剩菜剩饭吃了 -- 然后我看到一小碗牛奶泡cereal,已经吃了大半。
“妹妹,你给自己倒牛奶和cereal吃啦?”
妹妹立刻骄傲的指着这个那个高高的碗柜,告诉我她从这里拿了cereal,从那里拿了碗,又从冰箱里拿了牛奶。
“倒牛奶时有没有spill milk 啊?”-- 我看见碗旁边一团napkin。
“Yes,and I wiped it with napkin."
"看来,把你一人留在家里,你不会饿死的哦。”
我拍拍她的头,表示鼓励。

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Ozzy Osbourne - "Dreamer"

Ozzy Osbourne ~ Dreamer
Gazing through the window at the world outside
Wondering will mother earth survive
Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime

After all there's only just the two of us
And here we are still fighting for our lives
Watching all of history repeat itself
Time after time

I'm just a dreamer
I dream my life away
I'm just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days

I watch the sun go down like everyone of us
I'm hoping that the dawn will bring a sign
A better place for those Who will come after us ...
This time

I'm just a dreamer
I dream my life away oh yeah
I'm just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days
Your higher power may be God or Jesus Christ
It doesn't really matter much to me
Without each others help there ain't no hope for us
I'm living in a dream of fantasy
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah

If only we could all just find serenity
It would be nice if we could live as one
When will all this anger, hate and biggotry ...
Be gone?

I'm just a dreamer
I dream my life away
Today
I'm just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days
Okay
I'm just a dreamer
Who's searching for the way
Today
I'm just a dreamer
Dreaming my life away
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah